Meeting Elaine at 7.45 a.m. Ha-ha.

Signing off~
*All the best to all participating in EMERGE!*

Tiring, yet fulfilling.

Things are taking place one after another and events after events. But I dare not say I am busy, because many out there are having a tougher fight with Time than me. I am just stretched and my capacity is challenged. Sometimes, I really feel like I am going to fall anytime, flat on my face.

These times are times when I am totally insane. I will cry on my bed, yet smile as I remember the purpose of it all. Times when I will complain and complain, but gave in to it all because I know I will never outgive Him. I will yell and scream and ask, "Why," then become mum when He ask me what have I done. When darkness falls in and He will send me that flame of hope.

You broke through the walls I built and love me beyond worth. You send me people that added colours to my life, everyone of them.

I won't give up, or give in.
Tests make it proven, so Tests here I come!
Please see me through, I believe. (:

Two over months have passed and time is still ticking away. I have taken many roundabouts through wrong decision-making, and with wrong responses. How long more, just how long will I keep running in circles? It is not about the time I have wasted, or the things I have missed. What that is really lost, is the impact that could have been made, lives that could have changed. I chose to not let it all happen, I chose to back off and be indifferent of all that is happening. How long more, I asked. Silence.

I watched Eight Below today (or yesterday to be exact). It is a movie about the courage of the Antartica explorers and their sleigh dogs. I did not expect much because the description of it that I heard was not very exciting to me. But being there, and seeing it for myself, I must say that it is a real good movie to catch. It captures your emotions and brings you to another world, halfway round the other side of the globe. It is amazing!

I weeped during the show when I hear this statement, "Sometimes, we have to take a risk for the things we care about."

What is your first response when you find yourself struggling to breathe in a whirl pool of uncertainty? My response broke the silence I had at the beginning.



*A soldier enters into a battlefield with an identity no longer his own,
but that of a soldier*
Yes, I will.

Happy Chinese New Year! Haha! It's really a very blessed year for me! ;) I've just ate my reunion dinner and it was good. The service was up to standard, food was savouring and people were warm. Most importantly, I got to eat my long-lost favourite food, fa-chai! Ha, talk about a dream come true.

There's more to be thankful of! Haha. I just received news of a job! It has good pay and its demands are just to do what I am doing; and free transport too! Confession indeed has power! =)

It's a greater year ahead!

"I confess that this year is going to be the greatest year yet! Like a potter moulding his clay, let me be shaped."

L.o.v.e is such a powerful four letter word. I was once told, "Love draws you to sacrifice." Doesn't it puzzles you how and why the combination of these commonly seen alphabets can do so much? Like a huge net cast out into the open sea, it awaits to capture you with no mercy nor any room for negotiation. Its mission is so, and I am caught. I have fallen in love!

In love with You all over again. I realised that I can never escape from this net You have cast so many years ago; Your organised scheme never fails. Today, You make me see your goodness, oh, how can I run away anymore, where can I run to? How can I further refuse? I can turn my face from anyone, but You! My heart has been stolen; my tears kept safe; all of my days have been captured in the beautiful frame of Your mind. Tell me, teach me to refuse this agape love.

I am so blessed to know You and to be in Your embrace once more. Hug me every morning, pat me til I'm asleep. I love You, and I love You! Jesus, my Lord, I love You! (:

L.o.v.e draws you to sacrifice when you understand how much the other party sacrificed, just to love you.