I will not run away. I don't know how, and I am scared. But I will not run away. I will pluck up all the courage I have in me now and fight it. Forgive me, I took things in my own hands again.

My thoughts are blurred and stray. I am lost, and my eyes are failing me. I saw how scary it can be today when I was pushed to face IT. I felt it so real! The battle, the struggle, the fear, the voices, it was all so real! I felt a tremble from within, a strong cry of pain urging me to run, to escape from what is placed in front of me. But I know, I can't run away. I got to face it, I got to fight it, no matter what.

I will learn to trust and believe in YOU

I am so thankful, really. For the past few days, things were rough but I learnt a lot. I've cried a lot, complained a lot and then cried even more. Haha. At the end of the day, gratitude overwhelms me more than any of those negative thoughts and feelings. Many thanks to everyone, and the most important HIM. :) Loving YOU still! Haha.